Our amazeballs dinner that didn't cost that much to make!

I am relatively new to Crock Pot cooking. I just got my first crock pot this past Christmas from my in-Laws.
The model I have is a GE Slow Cooker. I absolutely LOVE it! It even has these nifty things to lock the lid on for traveling :)
I've tried a handful of different recipes in it some did not pan out at all!
Tonight though was delicious! And so freaking simple!
Even my mom who is the type to find something wrong just about everything I cook loved it and didn't nitpick at all!
The cube steak was so tender that a couple of the pieces literally fell apart in the gravy. You could cut the meat with a fork.

Here is the recipe...

*6 medium size cube steaks
*2 regular size cans of Cream of Mushroom soup
*1 envelope of Onion Soup Mix
*3/4 cups of Water

You just toss everything into the crock pot and you're set!
You could cook on Low for the entire day.
I cooked it on High for 4 hours and then on Low for 1.5 hours.
Bon Appetit!

Totally sold! (Diablo 3 Demo PS3)

Diablo 3 OMG!

So HB's been playing Diablo 3 on the PC since it came out like a year ago.
I don't play PC games like that. I always end up pushing the wrong buttons especially when it gets to a Boss fight. I get excited and push the wrong buttons and then die like instantly.

HB downloaded the Demo for Diablo 3 for the PS3 yesterday because he wanted to see how it compared with buying the game. He was going to rent it but alll the rental places around town are out of copies (not surprised at all)
I watched him play it through to the end. Level cap is 9.
He was really impressed with the game play and a little irritated with how much easier it is to find Legendary items compared to the PC version.


After watching him play through it I decided to give it a shot so that I could write a more in depth blog :)
We found out from him messing around that it has a 2 player mode! SWEETNESS!
I was relieved to find that because...
1. Its good to have a guide lol
2. It means another game that we can play together! (that we both like)



I really enjoyed playing the demo with him so tomorrow (Friday) we're going to go buy a copy for the PS3 so we can play together!
I played through the Demo as the Female Wizard but I really want to try out the Demon Hunter. It wasn't available in the Demo.

So I will totally be making at least one more blog post about this game :)

I feel like God is testing me!

“Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.” ~  Christopher Reeves


Its been a month and half since the miscarriage. If you didn't read that post here is the link to that post.

Right now I feel like God is testing me and I have no idea why.
A month and half ago I lost our baby at 10 weeks. Then my Grandfather took a turn for the worse with his brain cancer and I had to watch him waste away like I did with my Grandma. And then he died last Wednesday (9/11)
In between all that our sweet baby Kai turned 4 and started 4k on Tuesday!
I really wish I knew what was expected of me. IF there is a certain way I should be handling this I'd really like to know so this test can be over.

I'm so tired of crying and being sad. It seems like every time I try to be upbeat and happy something comes along to knock the wind out of me again.
There are times when I just want to collapse and scream "Uncle!" because I can't take losing anyone else but then I realize I can't.
I have so much to be thankful for and I know I am blessed.

I really wish I knew the reason behind this test. 
I've done my time and earned my scars.
I survived my mom going crazy with PTSD and blaming for everything that was wrong in her life.
I survived my Dad's alcoholism (and have celebrated his sobriety).
I made it through being homeless, living in a house with no power or hot water.
I survived being emotionally, verbally and physically abused by a parent and by an ex boy friend.
I made it through all of that and now this is happening.
I just don't get it. I made it through hell and can't help but feel a little angry and jipped.

All I want is to be happy with my family. I don't think I'm asking too much after being through my own personal hell.
I don't want riches or attention. Just to be happy with HB and Kai.

I feel like God is punishing me and if I can figure out what is expected of me I'll be rewarded with a cupcake lol (not really)

Plan of attack for attending funerals with small children (battle guide)

Kai after she took a rose from the casket.

As I had previously posted this past week my Grandfather passed away after a long battle with brain cancer. Here is the link to that blog post.

Well the Wake was this past Sunday. I attended it with my Father, HB and Kai. I was worried about what Kai would do especially with these two factors...

1. With seeing Great Grandpa laid out in the casket
2. The wake was 5 hours long. Thats a long time for adults let alone a 4 year old.

So I packed just about everything I could think of except the sink lol
I was well prepared and I didn't need half of it!
I packed a beach tote (the kind with all the awesome pockets) FULL. I made sure I had things for both  HB and Kai because I figured they were both going to get bored.
I packed..

• Cell phone chargers
• Change of clothes for everyone (but me lol)
• Extra pair of shoes. 
• Wet ones
• Coloring books and crayons
• Snacks (I took protein bars and animal crackers)
• Leap Pad (or any game)
• Charger for the game
• Story books
• Hair brush

I don't know if this is the norm for other wakes but at my Grandfather's they had a sandwich tray and veggies tray.
I got very lucky because my favorite Aunt and Cousin pitched in and helped keep Kai occupied.
What shocked me more though was when I was standing up by the casket with the rest of the family shaking hands with everyone and Kai came up to stand with me.
She stood there like a perfect little lady and shook hands with (I lost count) numerous friends of my Grandpas.
We had a couple hiccups but I think that is to be expected for a 4 year old.

At the funeral today she was great. For both of the things we let her bring her comfort item. Her stuffed bunny named Lola.
I would suggest planning for the worst unfortunately and then praying it doesn't come to that lol

If anyone has any questions I'm more then willing to answer..